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[Dec. 4th, 2009|06:03 pm] |
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kinda realizing that everything is pointless |
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[Dec. 1st, 2009|04:56 am] |
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What the hell is up with my luck w/guys. Last 3 guys-
Guy #1: distance. "didn't know what he wanted" ..now has a gf.
Guy #2: good friend for a while. "I think you're cool, but I just don't see us dating" ..maybe he likes boys?
Guy #3: new friend. "it wouldn't be fair of me to pursue you and be stupid and mess it up because you don't deserve to be hurt by me or anyone" ..what the fuck.
STRIKE 3 I'M OUT!!!!!!
P.S. there kinda IS this guy that is interested that i was talking with for a min.. but i've come to the realization that he is an alcoholic and he flirts with my best friend sometimes. fml. |
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[Nov. 16th, 2009|03:33 am] |
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i drank for the first time in my life saturday night. and that's all i wanted to say |
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[Nov. 6th, 2009|03:09 pm] |
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SJ boy changed his status on facebook from Single to In a Relationship.
So I clicked "Like" :) |
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[Nov. 4th, 2009|10:44 pm] |
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Rest in Peace Tyler Richard Booth
April 9, 1990 - October 31st, 2009
Although I have only known you since 6th grade, I knew you well enough to be completely devastated when I heard the news. I couldn't believe it was real.. I refused to believe it was real.. I thought it was some sick joke someone was playing on Halloween. I woke up early Saturday morning to a text from a friend asking if you had died. I responded with What? What are you talking about? and I prayed to GOD it wasn't you, that she was talking about a different Tyler that I didn't know. I quickly got out of bed and hopped on the computer to find out what on earth she was talking about.. and looked at your facebook page. Nothing unusual there. So then I continued to search on facebook and came across one of our mutual friends pages and read their status and figured he MUST have been mistaken.. there's no way. Then I looked at another person's page to see if it was true and saw what I was afraid of. I instantly broke down and didn't know what to do or how this could happen.
We were definitely much closer in middle school when we use to hang around the same group of friends and would hangout on weekends. A few of my memories include you fighting me in my room (just playing around) and sometimes buying me things from the ice cream truck. We hung out every once in a while in high school, but definitely not as much as I wish we did. But whenever we did see each other, we would wave and say hi. Even though you drank a lot and did some things my parents didn't exactly approve of, they never had a bad thing to say about you.. and they would always talk about how polite and nice you were. You were loved by everyone. I am so glad I took the time to walk up the street and go to a few of your parties these last couple months.. I can't believe I took advantage of the fact that you lived right next to me and I basically could've hung out with you any day I wanted.
At the last party of yours I went to, there was an incident where you were hanging around a girl that one of your friends liked (but you didn't know it), and he was sitting on the couch acting all depressed. I sat next to him and asked what was wrong. He told me that he was upset because you always get all the girls and the girl that was interested in you right now was a girl he had a thing for. Then he got up and left the room all upset, and you came over to me asking where he was. I told you what happened and then I was taken aback by how concerned you were and you looked so hurt, sad, and apologetic.. you said "Oh man. I need to go talk to him." And that's the way you've always been, you cared so much for your friends and family. You were a good person, and had a good heart. I will miss you neighbor. ♥ |
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[Oct. 12th, 2009|12:53 pm] |
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So since my friend Travis and I both go to the same school, have the same class, and both drive from here to P hill.. we carpool to school. Turns out he is a supervisor at Kohl's so I talked to him about getting a job. I have never ever ever wanted to work there, especially since it is almost the same EXACT thing as gay Mervyn's.. but I am desperate for money, especially after getting this new phone. He said he could for sure 100% get me an interview because he can put my application in the interview pile lol. And if I say I was referred by him then I would definitely get the job because he is friends with all the managers. So me, my friend mena, and my friend carolina applied there umm.. like almost 2 weeks ago or something? AND THEY BOTH GOT CALLED AND THEY BOTH GOT INTERVIEWED. I didn't get a damn thing hahahah.. we'll see what happens, he said I missed the cutoff because they interview like 13 people at a time so there was no room for me.. and he can try to get me an interview in the next group. I'm starting to rethink this whole Kohl's thing, it doesn't sound that fun..
There's a Nestle Tollhouse Cookie place opening up next to the movie theater downtown, where Starbucks use to be.. so I applied there too. Sounds a lot more fun and actually kinda has to do with what I'm going to school for. I hope I get that job instead.
Btw the phone I got is the Blackberry Curve 8900 :) I loove it.. but I can't seem to figure out what the hell my blackberry email address is. It almost seems like the guy that set my phone up for me set up an email address for me too and didn't tell me. I don't even remember him saying anything about a blackberry email address, he just asked which email address I would like to set up with my phone and I said my comcast email. This shouldn't have anything to do with my bb address though because you can supposedly have up to 10 email addresses set up with your phone.. I tried to find out what it is online but it just says Forgot Password? and it doesn't have a Forgot Username option.. so I had it email me the password and it is something generic that you can tell came with the address, so it's not something I made. Oh and before that I tried to make a new account, so I had to enter my PIN and IMEI.. and it said that an account with that info has already been made. I guess I'll have to call someone :/
The reason why I wanna find out what it is so badly is because I have to have email notifications set up with facebook in order to get them sent to the facebook application on my phone. That's so fucking stupid it makes no sense. So now when I go to check my email on comcast I have like 80 emails from stupid facebook.. so if I set up my blackberry email address with facebook then that would make a lot more sense and everything would be easier. Does anyone else have a bb? give me your pin so we can talk on bbm:) |
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[Sep. 12th, 2009|05:59 pm] |
Ready to hear a story about how I'm an idiot??? Okay so go back to my posts on April 29th & March 4th. Because both of those posts are about the same person along with this one. I will call him SJ boy. So I've been hanging out with SJ boy JUST as friends ever since a lil after that April post. I didn't trust him, was interested in other people, just didn't like him that way. Well things changed around the 1st week of August when I drove out there to visit him. We kissed for the first time in a reeaally long time. Feelings started to develop..and yeah I started to like him again. Big mistake right? I was still kinda iffy about him because of what happened the last time..so I was keeping my guard up and not taking everything super serious and was just going with the flow, lol. Plus I didn't want a boyfriend anyway. I didn't really know what I wanted.
So in the month of August I drove out there and visited him 4 times and he came here maybe twice. Then near the end of the month we played in a soccer tournament together in Palo Alto. This one time when we were texting I asked him what made him change his mind anyway (about me I guess) and he said "I onno." so I was like Wowww that's all you say? lol and he was like "Jus wasn't ready" and I said Oh so how do you feel about things now? And he basically said that he liked me a lot but he's taking a bunch of really hard classes right now and working a lot so he doesn't know how he's gonna make it work yet. I said I understood and he said thanks for understanding it means a lot. I went and visited him last Friday (the 4th) and went with him and his friend to visit his brother in the hospital & I met his mom (I had already met his dad before) .. so I dunno just little things like that make me think that he actually likes me right?
WELL, the last time we had talked through texting/a lil bit of AIM was on Monday (or Sunday..?) Actually yea I think it was Sunday. Things before that seemed completely fine and normal btw. But then days go by and he doesn't talk to me. Doesn't text me (which is weird since we use to text every day)..doesn't go on AIM..doesn't facebook IM me lol or talk to me on myspace or anyyything. Also he posted a pic of him and some girl on fb and I'm not really sure who she is.. I just know that she goes to college out of state so she was probably visiting but I don't know if she's just a good friend or an ex or any of that. She commented the pic saying "love love love youuuu...like i love love." OH AND a few days before that I left him a ♥ as a comment and she commented after me saying "hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii-ya. ♥ you more."
I decided to not talk to him, to not initiate any texting or anything until he talked to ME, and if he didn't then that means he didn't really care. But I was so stressed out and annoyed that I finally texted him last night @ 11:05 saying Hey um why do i feel like the same thing is happening all over again? HE REPLIED TODAY at 12:23 and said "Hey well to be completely honest with you I really don't no wut I want rit now. I'm not trying to drag u along but I think u should no that." wooooooowwww...I text him back like an hour later and say This same kind of thing happened to me like 2 months ago with a different guy and I didn't know what I wanted so I understand where youre coming from but this is the second time its happened between us so maybe we should just be friends.
He hasn't replied yet. |
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[Sep. 2nd, 2009|05:31 pm] |
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do not get attached do not get attached |
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[Aug. 12th, 2009|05:07 pm] |
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I just want you to be happy |
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[Aug. 1st, 2009|10:05 pm] |
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whoa look at this tat lol
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[Jul. 30th, 2009|04:54 pm] |
I DON'T KNOW WHAT to do about anything anymore, I need to get my head togethrrrr |
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[Jul. 17th, 2009|03:23 am] |
From: Erik (Erik Williams)
myspace.com/sexyhotboy28
Date: Jul 16, 2009 2:13 AM
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Subject: Hey sexy
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How you doing?.. I was just browsin and came across your main photo. I havent checked out your main page yet. Anyways, you are very cute and I love your eyes. I know I would fall prey to your sexy stares...lol.. fa real..(smile)... Oh, and your lips...sexy..sexy... Can I taste them? I promise I want suck all the flavor off them...lol.... But yea, I keeps it solid. I will say whats on my mind... I hope it was ok to send this message to you. I ment no harm by sending it. I just like what I see and wanted to share that with you. Check out my page as well ok? Make sure you read my profile and intro to know more about me and how I like to spoil a girl. If you feelin it, please do get back to me. If i dont hear back from you, then it probably means that you wasnt feelin it or you wasnt interested. No love lost either way. You take care mama.. One luv..
Erik |
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[Jun. 18th, 2009|02:13 am] |
WORKOUT DAILY
get a tan
find a second job
improve in soccer
leave the state
take a pic wit mike zaher
kiss someone new
go to six flags
meet bret michaels
do something for my birthday
road trip to LA |
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[May. 27th, 2009|12:21 am] |
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Do you think it is weird for someone to have really strong feelings for a person they have not met in person, and have only known for a few months? They only talk online/on the phone. Give me your thoughts/opinions. |
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